15 Beans and a Pork Roast, AND GOD'S GOOD ORDERLY DIRECTION

Greetings Fellow Citizen, I've a need to write this down before I forget it, and if you happen to read it you might just be the one who was supposed to have found it and read it.  I had neurosurgery on my lower back Jan. 24th this year and it has been healing quite well. Yesterday the first meal I had prepared that took longer than putting something in the microwave to micro-zap cook.  I am also awaiting knee surgery the word next month that I am on the surgery schedule for a total knee replacement. Ok, so here I was yesterday, I had soaked the beans over night and here it was 8 am and time to add the pork roast to the crock pot that was now 3/4 full of beans.  Well, this extra large crock pot now wasn't gonna work so after trimming all the fat I could and moving everything into a huge pot onto the stove pot I was back in business and everything was back on schedule. Before my back surgery I couldn't stand and work with my hands in front of me for anywhere from 1 to 5 minutes. Here I had been at this for going on an hour and I hadn't noticed any huge complaints yet. I still had the dishes to clean and I was now starting to have bone on bone wear on my where I need my knee replaced and my back was starting to complain but, I decided despite better advise to just get it done. I have been told over and over again if it starts to hurt that I have to stop other wise it will put me out of commission.
Well, that's exactly what happened. Within 2 hours my knee was swollen real big, my back was hurting as bad as right after surgery.  So, that's what was going on the rest of the night, I slept on the couch and iced and elevated my knee.

Ok, HERE'S THE PART THAT I CAN'T DO FOR MYSELF, my morning meditation this morning was about where we seek and find and experience God.  (I will try tomorrow to quote it for you tomorrow) It said something to the effect, that when we go inside to the place where we experience Joy, and if we think that there is anything that can threaten that Joy than we are not in God's Joy, we are in a construct of ego--a construct of the ego, an illusion.

I was hurting really bad after whatever I did to my back and my knee (not positive if from standing too long) and it was very hard to go to the noon A.A. meeting but I was so glad I did!  At the meeting, GOD DID FOR ME WHAT I COULD NOT DO FOR MYSELF. I went inside to the place that is where God is to the joy is to where there is no threat to the joy and slowly but progressively I rose above the aches and pains of my body and everything changed. My entire vibration, my entire perspective changed.

These kinds of experiences are becoming more and more common and I look forward to the time when I am no longer lead astray by the false universe at all.

God's Peace, Love and Joy, Sid Og

ACIM TEXT PG 366

(the 2nd full paragraph) The holy instant is your invitation to love to enter into your bleak and joyless kingdom, and to transform it into a garden of peace and welcome. Love's answer is inevitable. It will come because you come without the body, and interposed no barriers to interfere with its glad coming.  In the holy instant, you ask of love only what it offers everyone, neither less nor more. Asking for everything, you will receive it. And your shining Self will lift the tiny aspect that you tried to hide from Heaven straight to heaven. No part of love calls on the whole in vain. No Son of God remains outside His Fatherhood.

My experience is that the bleak and joyless kingdom it is talking about is what my/our ego and our disease has made/makes for us. AND because WE BELIEVE IT IS REAL, WITH ALL OUR MIGHT. Sadly, A LOT OF US WOULD STAKE OUR LIVES ON IT.

BUT, The holy instant can and DOES, in a proverbial instant transform our pile of poop into a garden of peace and welcome to God, us and our fellows. 


I'm not at top form which might be a good thing?? I made a list of stuff I need to do each day and I believe I need 48 hrs a day to get it done w/in that 24 hrs. time period.

I wish anyone and everyone who reads this the peace of your mothers or fathers first embrace, the unconditional love of a sibling, or grandparent or lover.  But most of all, I wish you the peace that can only be found in your heart when you feel safe and warm and protected.

God's Peace, Love, Joy and the realization that he or she created you and truly has never let you or wanted you to believe that you were more than a breath or a thought away from him, ever.


And as he glances over as you/us now he sees us/you asleep on the pillow beside him and he is well pleased with is precious child.  Good Night, Pleasant Dreams to me also, Sid Og.